Where the mind can be

Back story. Due to my issues with trusting people I rarely let anyone in to my life. It's not that I don't want people in my life but that they are more apt to take advantage of you by using you for whatever they need, lying to you or about you (sometimes knowing you or the other person knows the truth but still doing it), or saying they care but really never know what you are feeling because they rarely hear it). 

So about 8 months ago I started playing a game DBD (Dead by Daylight) 🎮 on my ps4 that my son recommended. I couldn't tell you why but I was hooked. However my son recommended making friends because playing SWF (survive with friends) was a good way to play. That opened up party chat which was a hard thing for me to do but I knew playing where we knew what the others were doing was beneficial. Over the course of time I've met numerous people some came some went and then about 2 months in a met this group of girl friends who accepted me with open arms and gradually they became family. But that leads us to the now.

72 hrs of my life has been taken from me because I allowed myself to stress over a dispute between a few of the people in the group. I have to be honest if I had spoken up and told party 1 that I had been part of a conversation between them and party 2 and that party 2 was the one in the right maybe things wouldn't have come to the point it has.

I've spoken to my therapist about it and she has recommended talking to them about the situation. Which would be wonderful but I don't see how I can get party 1 to realize that this isn't the first time they have done the same thing and that they really need to apologize to party 2 for laying the blame on them as well as help them to understand this problem they have with divulging things they shouldn't about others when they're stressed out. If you don't want others to discuss your personal business with others you must give them the the same respect. It hurts to watch them alienate people to the point that people leave as well and not be able to explain why they've left because I know that for every reason given for someone leaving there will be an excuse made as to why the other person did or said what they did. 

So for the time being I am stuck not knowing what to do or how to do it to bring my family back together while trying to keep my mental health. 

On the bright side by this time tomorrow my 72 hours will be over and I can go back to the rest of my life. Kinda sucks not being able to socialize when I feel like I want to.