For a bit of background. I have 4 children and for most of their lives they have all been sons. However my 2nd child has decided that they aren't male but are female instead. Now I may not agree with their choice however I have respected it and have defended it more times than I care to count.
I may not agree with their choices in life whether political, religious, or personal but I will respect whatever choices they may be.
However I have now come to realize that it doesn't matter. Because while I was being respectful of them they were stabbing me in the back.
So today in true me fashion I'm speaking my piece. I have been expected to just accept that the boy I raised is now a girl and not be upset or hurt by it in anyway.
Well I am hurt and angry as hell. Because of their choices I am expected to just dismiss a large portion of my life and memories. I am not allowed to use their "dead name" ever. Well I'm not going to dismiss any of it. For over 20 years I had a son named Darius and I couldn't love him more and I was so proud of him and his work ethic. Job from 16 hard working from what I've seen. Now I have a daughter named Ashlynn with whom I don't like and have no reason to be proud of because she has no pride in herself. She expects everyone else to solve her problems going as far as to.play poor me and beg people on Facebook for help because she can't afford to pay her bill's.
I have come to realize that all I am to her is an atm. Since she left home at 18 (because legally and morally I couldnt kick her out before then for things she did to others in my home although she could have and should have been jailed for her actions) because I told her that either she needed to help out around the house instead of expecting me and everyone else in the home to do it all or find somewhere else to be she left claiming I kicked her out and blaming me for all that went wrong in her life.
The stories I heard after that were amazing. Yet my husband and I have taken her back into our home only to be used and judged according to her standards again and again.
Just take responsibility for your actions or lack thereof instead of always playing the victim or wronged party.
Oh well one last person who will ever get another thing from me in life and death.
