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Thursday, January 27, 2022

fraud is just lies with a fancy bow

I recently learned that my child you know the one who disowned me is claiming to not only be a reincarnation of a Norse Goddess and their spouse is a Norse God but also that they are doing readings for people. Which of course I mentioned to some of my fellow kindred members that they needed to check it out.  I sent them to my child's Instagram,Twitter, and TicTok accounts (nerdly.random.skali) without giving them any details or explanation so they wouldn't be biased in any way. They all were flabbergasted by what they read and offended as any honest pagan would be. I think they watched too much of Sylvia Brown as a child and thought as an adult I can do that. 

Makes more sense why I was disowned all of a sudden. Can't reinvent yourself and pretend to be someone you're not if mom can prove you're not who you say you are. I've spent time thinking about it and wondering if I or someone I know actually let their clients know that they are a lying criminal and was a teenage pedafile who reinvents themselves every few years how long they would have these clients. Just a few years ago they were atheist and now they're a full blown goddess. Once again you can't accidentally use someone else's credit/debit card, even if it's on file with yours you have to verify the card number to place an order. But after talking to my fellow kindred members I believe the forces that be will take care of everything and expose them for the fraudulent person they are.

However I did have to laugh at one part of their page. The claim that their vessel died and they were reincarnated as Skali. Your vessel didn't die otherwise you wouldn't be upright talking and walking. The identity within the vessel may have died and a new identity of their choosing took its place but the vessel still walks and talks. 

I can say one thing though I have no need to block anyone from viewing my site because I'm not afraid of what they might say. 

That's it for today folks.

Thursday, January 13, 2022

Secrets

This morning I woke up thinking about secrets. There are so many kinds of secrets some are the great kind like a proposal or a surprise party, but then there are those that are deep and dark. Recently I learned that I had a relative that had been adopted out and for decades no one knew about her. I was blessed and privileged to be the one she reached out to searching for her bio family. I am hoping I helped her find some of those answers and am always here to help if I can. However I wonder if it was a secret that needed to be kept I realize that I may not be one of those family members who should have known but there are those who should have that had no clue, is this right really? Secrets can either help or destroy as we all know but how do we decide which to keep and which to not. 

I myself hate secrets as my childhood was filled with don't tell your mom and dad kind of secrets. The kind that destroy the innocence of a child while hiding the guilt, and depravity of a teenager or adult. I unfortunately was one of those children who lost their innocence while those who took it have hidden their part in it. I have been privileged enough to confront 2 of my abusers however neither has accepted their part in the wrong committed. Instead of accepting their part one of them instead explained to me how they had learned it and laid the blame fully on their abusers which they did name to me and that they didn't know any better. However they were old enough at a point where they knew that it was wrong and continued to do it that was on them. And just so anyone that doesn't get it does now a 5 year old child cannot seduce anyone period.  

So I have become over the years the one to confront and expose anyone with those secrets. The lies are revealed and those responsible are held accountable even if it is only by me. Every time someone keeps those secrets there is the risk of another person being affected in the same way. And although I can't honestly say who else my abusers affected I can honestly say that even though I didn't know that it was wrong when it was happening to me I as an adult live with the guilt of what my keeping those secrets may have cost another child. I am also bothered by the fact that I know due to some of my memories that there were signs of the abuse that were ignored and that if instead had been handled then maybe some people wouldn't be affected now in ways that can't be changed. 

Secrets are not secrets to be kept when they destroy others period.

Friday, January 7, 2022

Judgemental much

Recently I was unfriended and blocked by my child and their spouse on Facebook. To be honest I've been expecting it for some time now as I am not their biggest cheerleader on every choice they make. 

 For a bit of background. I have 4 children and for most of their lives they have all been sons. However my 2nd child has decided that they aren't male but are female instead. Now I may not agree with their choice however I have respected it and have defended it more times than I care to count. I may not agree with their choices in life whether political, religious, or personal but I will respect whatever choices they may be. However I have now come to realize that it doesn't matter. Because while I was being respectful of them they were stabbing me in the back. So today in true me fashion I'm speaking my piece. I have been expected to just accept that the boy I raised is now a girl and not be upset or hurt by it in anyway. Well I am hurt and angry as hell. Because of their choices I am expected to just dismiss a large portion of my life and memories. I am not allowed to use their "dead name" ever. Well I'm not going to dismiss any of it. For over 20 years I had a son named Darius and I couldn't love him more and I was so proud of him and his work ethic. Job from 16 hard working from what I've seen. Now I have a daughter named Ashlynn with whom I don't like and have no reason to be proud of because she has no pride in herself. She expects everyone else to solve her problems going as far as to.play poor me and beg people on Facebook for help because she can't afford to pay her bill's. 

I have come to realize that all I am to her is an atm. Since she left home at 18 (because legally and morally I couldnt kick her out before then for things she did to others in my home although she could have and should have been jailed for her actions) because I told her that either she needed to help out around the house instead of expecting me and everyone else in the home to do it all or find somewhere else to be she left claiming I kicked her out and blaming me for all that went wrong in her life. 
The stories I heard after that were amazing. Yet my husband and I have taken her back into our home only to be used and judged according to her standards again and again.

Just take responsibility for your actions or lack thereof instead of always playing the victim or wronged party.

Oh well one last person who will ever get another thing from me in life and death.