Why?????

I am soooooo confused. I keep hearing from friends and my children that friendships between the genders is a healthy thing and that as long as you're not hiding it in any way your partner should be able to handle it. 

But an innocent text conversation sent a 50 year old man into forbidding his partner from having any conversations with strange men recently. Strange men to him that is. Now the man has been unfaithful in the relationship more than once his partner has never been unfaithful and really doesn't want or need to be. At her age she just wants to be happy and enjoy her golden years. Not deal with childish jealously from someone she has chosen till death do us part with.

She's crushed and has been swallowed up in depression again. Hating herself and wishing just to be plucked from this life. She knows she'll pull herself back out of this black hole again but she realizes it's getting harder to do so with each drop into that hole.

She also knows that although she is in it till death do us part that may no longer be an option. She has made so many excuses for the actions that caused her pain to herself and her friends. She's beginning to see for herself what those around her see and can't just keep making excuses because she loves him.

She can no longer be accused of doing those things that she wouldn't do because she values her relationship by the one person who has clearly shown that they don't value the relationship in the same way. 

You just need to stop with the bullshit just because you don't respect her and the relationship doesn't mean that she doesn't. There will come a point when she gives up on you completely and walks away. Not only will she have lost respect for the relationship at that point but also lost respect for you.

If you're so worried about what she might be doing think about what you aren't doing that you should be doing instead. 

Something in the air?

I'm really beginning to wonder if there is something in the air right now that is affecting the majority of the men in my life.  Their moody as hell, one minute angry the next whining. Of course I can't mention it because they just get crankier and somehow I or their partners/family get blamed. Excuse me your mood/attitude is yours to control. All I really want to say actually is 

Me: did someone piss in your wheaties this morning?

Them: no

Me: then suck it up buttercup, check yourself and stop making your bad day everybody else's. Be the adult we know you are and handle your mood. 

If I were to act like some of them I on the other hand would be a b**** whose angry at the world and throwing fits because I'm not getting my way.

You have a problem find a solution, if it involves another person sit down and discuss it. No one gets anywhere yelling their fool head off or passively aggressively doing things to make those around them just as unhappy as they are. That really just makes them not want to be around you and at some point it becomes a permanent not being around you situation.

Witchy Time

Received my January Witch casket box. Love how every month I receive a new book of some form. This month a Mindful Magic daily type journal.  Always something to enjoy and use on my altar.

The connection I feel with my beliefs is such a wonderful feeling and the joy each box brings can't be explained.

Heartless actions?

So today I spent the day on the verge of crying you know the kind just enough to moisten the eyes but not flow over the lids. Why? Something trivial to some I'm sure. I have made a few new friends while gaming that I have begun looking at as family and possible life long friends for what remains of my life whatever amount of time that is. Until last night that is. Someone said and did something that at the time I thought I could blow off, Simple enough right? They aren't someone I have physically met and our only interactions are online gaming and they aren't the ones I come to play with anyways. However I had begun to feel that I would be able to just blow it off that is until I went to sleep last night, apparently not according to my dreams last and and this urge to cry today apparently. 

Now although I enjoy not only gaming but laughing with and talking to my new friends I've spent the day really debating if I want to continue playing a game I love that my son says I'm addicted to because I don't want to cross this person's path again because if they can be that rude and disrespectful to my feelings once they will do it again. I can't fathom why they would be this way with me. I try not to say anything that may offend anyone and if I do I would hope that those whom I chose to bring into my life are respectful and mature enough to tell me if I do so.

And that's today's post.